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my sinus hurt. i need more water & more energy so i can work out. Head ache & aches all in my neck & back ;( my ears hurt too & dizzy from being stuffed up - it was cool today - not cold but not warm (for me anyway ;) i would do best in hot tropical temps. u know where i could swim in the ocean every day instead of showering ;)

yuck i hate pain. ironic - i was a cutter in 1989-92 but that was my process. i guess it is still my process. just now i feel. dang :) j/k i prayed my whole life for that. well i prayed why? my whole life & just specifically "to Feel" since 2005 - i got that more & more & more in 2007 ;) my life changed dramatically. I guess it has every 10 yrs? hmmm but life changing. From wanting death to wanting life. Bigger and better every time. But I have been crying out to god my whole life.

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oh kinda bummed still have 2 bedrooms to clean - dang got the kitchen and l rm to sparkle but hmm bath room still half way ha ha too beat time to rest hard to clean when u r so sick and taking care of kids in between whew tired but had a lot of fun making food for the kids and playing with mia - girls helped me clean a little too - that was cool

time to eat - yum bbq vegan ribs yum -

yah- mikes cooking for the kids tonite - i can take a break much needed. he feels bad bc he left all day to go surf and left me to clean and take care of the kids. i was stoked to have the peace and quiet - no call of duty all day gun fire in my ears and kids yelling for the tv. plus i only date guys looking for a fight. ha ha really both husbands would fight at the drop of a hat - no matter if u were an old lady - no joke. thank u god for helping me see and giving me the strength

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love ya lord jesus

God is so freaky, so cool, awesome thrilling supernatural!! I just love that!

thank u god for using music and using every little thing ;)

~~~ I Love My Life!! Thank You God For My Wild & Wacky Life ;) You always make it a Trip!!