You see MPD is like AIDS. It is a deadly illness, that has a cure that can help you live a more normal life. MPD is caused by child abuse. It is my belief that all children are abused in one way or another and most many times in many ways. Most people do not want to admit to abuse and many become very upset or agitated when the idea is even brought up - that abuse is real. We like to focus on helping abused animals or rain forests because they are safer. We can help ourselves heal by helping aid another abusive victim.
I have met a lot of people in a lot of places and I have never met one that has not been abused in some way - heck one could argue that we are all abused by the environment with toxic air and toxic fish, mad cow, deadly bacteria in our produce & water, and on and on (oh I am a Vegetarian I could go on and on). I mainly get upset that you have to be wealthy to eat better. That if you can afford clean water or clean food then you can buy Organic or better drinking water. But then you still have chemicals spewing out all over the world & greedy people inventing things all over the place (mostly america - my land of the free) to get rich. Greed is one of the 7 deadly sins for a reason. If you give back, if you share, if you know that God says to give 10% of your income to minister & help others...then you prosper.
America kills. Hollywood kills. Greed & big business kill. So small groups, small business, and small people will have to be the independence we can seek. I always knew the generation behind me & all the generations behind them would be the change. The change I wanted to see. I was waiting for the day that all the old Rep. & Dem. would die off. And then there would be change. Just my generation holding the torch. GenX at the top of the hill ;) Ahhh yes, I love it. Really it is the Generation before me I call it the Hippie Generation ;) The F it Gen. the kick back we dont care what ya think gen. We rebel, but not so drugged up as the 60's but children from the flower child era ;) Peace & Love & no war. No greed, money sucks, give it to the poor. But the Republicans persist. I saw the diversion - the separation. Hippies dirty lazy druggies not American. They are Anti War so Anti American. My parents were Republican all the way. I grew up in Orange County, Money was our god. I grew up in Hollywood Status is everything. Looks, image & being poor was not an option. Failing was not an option. We had everything you needed to succeed. Thank God I became a Born Again Christian when I was 16. I knew God was real. I grew up Catholic and I knew Jesus. I was a believer, I was a Catholic. But I wanted more. I wanted to read the bible not just listen to someone else read it to me (Fathers in church), I knew something was up. Why? Why dont they want me reading that book? I wanted to learn more. When I grew up in Catholic church there was no youth groups & I was confused why we had a Pope & why Priests were different from Pastors in other churches. It confused me. So when I read and studied and learn that there is no Pope in the bible & there is no Immortal sin that keeps you from Heaven, I wanted to know more of what I was taught and how The Roman Empire just wanted to control their people. And then Protestants came up when The King wanted to break God's rule and divorce for no reason but lust. Man Made Religion I call it. I just like non denominational straight out of the Holy Bible - nothing added. And I became Born Again when God knew I was old enough to make a decision on my own to choose God. Make a commitment to myself that I was a believer, that I do want to serve for My Lord & Savior. I always knew and I always had but I guess I felt I was making that statement, because I was of an age that I knew I was ready. I was one on one with God in my Personal Relationship w/Christ. And from that day on I wanted to study, I was ready to fight my fight for the Lord. And what a fight it was. Still is, just older now, wiser and the fight is way less hard. I had to fight for my freedom to live. I was so enslaved to satan that I could never see a way out. Well, I saw a crack, a ray of light. But in my dark cold cell that was never enough. I had to fight to break out. I had to be weak and faint and still. I had to wait but work on my escape daily. I had been doing that my whole life but as a kid - you just do it to survive. As a teen you want out no matter how.
Being abused on any level takes a small innocent mind and makes it fragmented. You break off into another place in your mind to deal with the pain. To deal with the horror or just to deal at all.
So putting the pieces together is easy ;) You just need to know yourself. Ah, there within lies the problem. No one knows themselves. No one wants to ;) They drink, they hide, the run away. They fragment. Some times we fragment so well we disassociate and we all do it in our society to some degree. Some more than others. I think that is how we get so much done. How we can tolerate so much. And achieve so much or not ;)
We all can, we just do what makes us comfortable. But achieving anything can be hard in itself. Not just the actual hard to get part but the hard in getting part. Actors, Sports figures, Singers, etc. all acquire fame & fortune and bam! It hits you hard. What do you do? Spend, spend, spend! All the 7 deadly sins come out ;) Gluttony, Lust, Greed, Envy, Pride, Sloth & Anger. You want it, you buy it, you want it, you have it, it is what most kids grow up to want. But most American kids grow up abused.
Screwed up, confused, just wanting out! Thinking all wrong. Most, even with religion hate God.
Mad at God. Confused about God. And back to the denial. Most get very annoyed, uncomfortable and say not me!
Oh, I can see threw all of your BS, every kid was abused. Oh, you are the special one that got away? How? From the start of time man has been taking what he wants brutally killing, raping and bullying to get his way.
I myself know that the closer I stay to God's laws the happier I am, the more peace I have. But that has been a life long journey to find myself.
Who are you? What do you do? Where do you come from? And what have you seen?
What do you know?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I dont want to do just that. I want to travel the world helping others ;) I want to stay in my home town and help my church. I want to write books and books on self worth and knowing your value. I want to talk to as many humans as I can and say DO YOU KNOW YOUR PURPOSE?
DO YOU KNOW YOUR VALUE? DO YOU KNOW YOUR WORTH?
Tell me your story. Tell me who you are.
That is my wish
But it never stops there. I want for women to stop giving their bodies away like we have no other value but sex. I want for men to start value a women and date her for a year before they are engaged and wait to have and lustful contact until they are married. I would love for people to get to know themselves and no what they like and who they are - not who they have been brain washed to believe by society, parents, & satan.
I want people to embrace all that has happened to them. To know their pain and know the pain in the world. To see the good and know that God takes all the bad and uses it for good. I want all humans to know God and know of The Holy Spirit.
I want all humans to help one another and come to the aid of the wounded - including themselves. Learning to care for yourself & others. Learning who you are and why you are here.
To tell as many people my story and how I know God heals. To be yourself no matter what and to shine in that thru the Glory of God. To know the battle & know there are only two sides ~
which side are you on? Which side do you fight for?
Freedom from self. Freedom from our sexual hang ups as a nation. Freedom to trust. Trust God, trust ourselves & maybe another human or two ;) Learning to love ourselves & others ~ the way God intends us to so that we may have all the blessings & miracles he has for us!!!!
Learning to communicate w/ God, with ourselves & with others. Learning to be real, and feel & heal. All thru God's perfect timing & perfect plan. Trust in the Lord with all your heart & lean not on your own understanding. One of my fav. verses from the Bible. I love that God has given me all the hard to make me who I am and thank you Lord for all your teachings ~ you are Mighty & All Powerful! Help me help other in need daily. Time to go pick up my kids ;) They are in need of an escort home.
No comments:
Post a Comment