and i think i will start to record that for myself and further readers who may enjoy the oddities. I myself learn that way. I have learned a lot that way. The hard way as they say. I have battled demons my whole life and I have always seen the bad. Oh, I have seen Good too let me tell you! I have seen God in action more times than my broken down keyboard would allow me to type ;) but some day I will get a new one and I will write again ;) Today, I get to type for a short while in between taking care of kids, school, and errands, etc. work, play, rest.... so I will start to write of the strange and bizarre things that have made me believe in Spirits.
And why I choose to Follow The Holy Spirit!
Sometimes I get so tired and so sick I hurt so bad. I cant move or think or breathe. I feel like a prisoner in a cage, a box, cold, dark and dank. But I heard the other day in one of the many churches I have visited in the last year that David lived in a cave for 7 years ;)
I just love David. I love his story ;) I love his book in the bible and I love that he was God's most Beloved ;)
ahhh that brings me much joy and comfort ;) and relief ;) mainly cuz he was way more of a mess up than me and did way worse things than I have so I feel ok ;) so maybe I am like God's Second Beloved ;)
Cuz I feel right just like David a lot of the time, but Job too and all the dumb ass apostles that even walking with JC denied him (many times said no i dont believe that) and they saw with their own eyes.
As well as the Old Testament Jews in the desert so those ancestors help me not feel so lame and dumb ;)
But i do get bummed on myself a lot when I fall, when I am ame and get caught in satans lies and deceptions.
But I am glad it hurts me to hurt you God. I finally get it.
I finally see how when I hurt myself you feel like i feel when i see my son or daughters hurt.
And more importantly i see that hurting me is not what you want nor what i want.
....hmmmm now how do u break the ties that bind me.... well for me it has been a life long pursuit. Ever since I was a very small child I had to battle satan. Up to the death. Many, any times. I was just thankful my Parents were Christians and both raised as strong Catholics. But I got to know both sides all too well for my young taste. I grew fed up, weary, angry. I thought God was evil and mean & torturous.
I hated all that i saw and trusted no one. Except maybe my grandma. She was my bodyguard ;) She was tough and raised me not to let satan bully you not to fear the devil.
wow, thanks granny.
That was rad. I adored her she was my hero! JC was my hero God was my hero! And as I gre I learned more. ore bad as it was. I did become a born again Christian at 16 and i liked that. I got my first bible right when i knew God knew I was not going to take it much more. I had prayed to die for 6-10 years at that point ~ daily.
Huh! A bible i can study??? How cool was that! I loved God (and hated him too but I was pissed & had every right to be).
I was also a Scientist who loved to learn and experiment (love to blow things up in Chem ;) And my mom is a huge fan of books and reading so i grew up with a huge library that my dad built my mom (which none of my friends had a library so i felt a bit odd) but i learned French in Private school when I was in Kindergarten and when I heard about Einstein, I felt OK.
Ahhhh I am ok. Not that odd. He was and is a modern day hero of mine as well.
So I highlighted and went to bible studies and I now thank God for providing and I see how there are no mistakes in life.
Every little thing is in God's perfect plan. Stepping stones. Touch stones ;) Stones in your shoe ouch! Dang! It is all for me finding trust in faith in God. In what i believe. In who I am!
You cant deny God. I dont care who u r I would debate any person alive (or dead ;) to that.
God as the creator of it all. The story is in the book. The history book. His Story. Hmmm.. God is Odd and odd is different. You have to Seek and look 4 God ;) But He is there. He is every where in all things He is the one who created Satan. Ahh now i get it even more. but from studing and reading the bible. I always believed. I saw both side fight against each other like Lighting Bolts. I felt in my mind, body, heart and soul both sides fight my whole life.
It is no mistake where I have been, what i have seen and it is no mistake for any one or anything else either.
It is mine to do my best to serve my Lord God each and every day to honor Him in my thoughts and actions.
To understand that that book has all my answers. My history. Your history.
To mock it is to not understand it. To be afraid to read the bible is the devil keeping you down. Kidnapping you.
Trust God and put God first and I am always ok
Do what my relatives taught me and go to church and listen and learn and respect God. Respect His Son Jesus and Pray. I also use to be afraid of The Holy Ghost, until I became Born Again and declared myself a Non Denominational Christian who follows Christ and God's teaching in The Holy Bible ;) God transformed my heart and thru 20 years of not getting it ;) I finally do hee hee yah, talk about your sloooooow learners. No, justa good fighter. I learned but it was all the wrong ways. It took years to undo that brain washing and learn a new way.
Now, my fear (of satan or anything really) triggers me to relax. Relax in God.
I know now. I get to learn and know more as the hours click by, and that excites me.
I did grow up having to be tough. Strong. Fight for what was right and good and just. I still do. I just let God do my fighting for me. And that was after 20 years in the ring with evil ~ kicking my ass! But I know bloody, torn, haggard and beat ~ I will go down dying for God and what He stands for.
My prayer today is that all of God's creations love and support each other and rejoice in The Lord!
Come on! You know in ur heart that you want to ;) Just believe in miracles & read the bible & you will see ;)
That is why satan holds you back from reading it! Bc haters become believers ;)
And believers are way stronger for God's side when they are educated.
And God is no dummy, dont u be dumb in thinking so ;) This is GOD that u r talking about ;) There are some mighty freaky amazing stories in that book
and he made us in His Image ;) So no wonder we are so freaky and weird ;)
God IS Odd
and the bible is filled with odd stories and odd ppl doing odd things ;)
So be odd for God and know what u believe in and which side u r on.
There is only Good and Evil and you need to pick a side and follow the Right Master ;) The Trurth ;) The Light The way ;)
God is love and never fear. Satan is Fear.
When u get angry, think I am Willing Following Satan right now and Turning My Back On God, Do I want that?
No, of course not! Who would? Satan only leads to a path of death for you and your loved ones. So Say no to mean. Say no to anger. Say no to abuse to your body (or anyone elses ;) and be kind and loving and know that God made u and loves u F'd up and all ;) He made u that way 4 a reason!!!!
Go find ur way with God ;) Go make peace with yourself and with God and with others ;)
Respect God and Respect yourself and Respect others ;) Respect all God's creations.
oh, yah just work on that and we'd all be good ;)
FOCUS ON GOD ;) That is what saved my life for 44.5 years
Thank you Master, I am yours Lord No Matter What
and btw, God doesnt hate anyone he is sad when we get hurt by our sin and go with satan and get evil results.
He wants us to follow his ways and have good and joy and blessings and only love, no matter what. Never fear, worry, hate, or hurt yourself or anyone else ;(
God has Guardian Angles and The Holy Spirit and God Is In You! Use it Now and Daily to stay pure and good and serve the right side ;)
The more you know, the better you can do ;) My dad would yell at me God gave you a big brain, now use it ;) hee hee I think that is when I started to what to study the brain of all animals ;)
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