I just love grave yards. I always have. I like to 'remember the dead'. I use to go week after week, every sunday with my granma ;) We would visit (as she said) her friend. I think the only man that showed her a man you love (other than her pa ;) can be gentle and kind and loving. Well, my moms dad was kind. but he got injured in the war (ww2) and got hit in the head and left. My mom was 8. I always thought that was a harsh gig. You know, you are born, dad comes home from the war a year later and one day he leaves and you never hear or see him again. It broke my heart. She use to talk so fondly of him. Even thou my dad was a major strict, mean and cruel person, he was also kind and loving and strong. Nothing seemed to scare my dad. He had no fears. He also drank a lot (and I think now it is just numbness). I later in life copied and did a great dead on impression of that same I could careless (except for kids and animals, plants ~ I just hated humans ~ grown up ones). My dad cared for us. His family. His folks, etc. Family was vital to both my parents. Sticking together no matter what. I really enjoyed that. I loved all my great aunts. My gmom had a lot of sisters. and they were all in my life (except for Minnie ~ she died prior to me ~ I dont remember how but I know my gmom would freak me out with her brother in law died shortly after). I would say how sad i am that i never got to meet ur sister minnie and how sad to have your sister die ;( All the sisters had kids, they were all married and I loved that. My granma had tons of great pics and i would sit with her and she would show me and tell me all about each person (sister) and their hubby and who the kids were in all the pics. So u can see I got really close to these ppl. They only had good stories to attach to and great feelings to cling to. I loved the old photos and black and white and the clothes and how no one smiled ever in old pics. like you were to look serious and distinguished. And all that black acid paper backings with the corner stickers in gold to attached and afix the pics ;)
I only have the pics ;) but I am glad that they are posted on the web so i can see my relatives pics as well ;) great memories.
My grandma married another person later and had a few more kids and I had a lot of aunts and uncles and many cousins (21 I think it is ;) that I saw very often. I loved that, we played and played on trampolines and swimming pools and in backyards ;) I was the oldest on my moms side here in socal but back east i have 3 cousins on my dads side and 2 are older than me ;) I liked that ;) Being the oldest (and not the oldest ;)
I am taking a break from my Nightmare (since it hurts my body to work so hard breathing in this mold and attacks every part of my body so it is very hard to move ;(
But I am happy to get the stuff out of my house (just soooo much stuff!!! Yuck) I praise God that I have a computer to type, to see stuff I like u know family pics, talk to pals, music!!!! God provides all my joys. I always have hot water and a bath tub ;) I have clean clothes (too many of them) happy to always get rid of the things I do not want to keep so I am stoked I have tons to bring to the shelter. Always ;)
Hey, I live in OC and I come from along line of shoppers ;) So I am not. But my friends give me tons and I collect clothes so I have a lot of great pieces that I love. I have always been into fashion ;) Well, dressing up, looking fun, using clothes to represent your style (& mood ;)
I have been like that since I was a teen. Well after Dittos that is so 14. That is when I started to pick my own clothes ;) That was cool. It was a great time. My mom had just took my advice to kick my dad out (ahh peace finally ~ I thought) But in that my mom found herself ;) Same age I am/was. That has been cool to relive that time and have be the same way (but improved on the errors that I saw)
She became beautiful (er ;) and shined even brighter. No more anger or hate or threats. No more violence or drunk rages I should say. I was way relieved (as I saw in her eyes as well ;) She had courage!
I was so proud of her ;) Helen Reddy was really popular and it was this whole womans rights movement. I hated all that self help crap. I hated that whole stigma of divorced catholic and i saw how wrong the romans enforced their man made rules to keep the public 'in line' to fear the government. It started with the jews, and goes thru the egyptians and says in the bible (OT) i will do this (after Issac and Moses story ;) That is where all the 'religions' split. separate. i never knew that until i started to study the holy bible. it is amazing to me how satan can turn god against everyone. so sneaky so good at what he does ;) so thank u god for making bad, so that i can know better. so i can do better. so i can make changes in my kids and any and all that will listen.
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