I am only sure about one thing ;) God, but I bet you knew I was gonna say that ;)

I am just in awe of God. HOw powerful. How real, how amazing and true! Weird, really. God does have a sense a humor and does like to play games with us ;) He made us in His image. God, I want a new Laptop. Thank you for helping me praise you in the waiting time. Sacrifice. I know is the sweetest thing to God and in return I am blessed ;) I learned that in Alanon and in church at bible study years later ;) Trust in God, not humans., God will never fail me, humans will always fail me. I am on my walk one on one with God. Always have ;) Just had 4 kids along the way ;) Thank God or I'd be dead ~ probably ;) I was on a real road to destruction pre kids. It was only after their dad left did I get help so I guess the kids did save me just God had to get the drunk out of my way.

Thank you Lord! So 13 yrs later he is still causing problems with his drunken rage and I get to see where my bad choices are now causing me so much pain. When I believed I was a bad person I believed bad things were for me. I had tried to run my whole life and it always took me down every time. I was starting to give up (so many times ;) and each and every time God swooped me up ;) Angeles I call it ;) God uses Angeles too ;) I had seen dark angles and demons my whole life. Anger and alcohol will do that to you and I was a victim of that deadly combo my whole childhood. As a teen I sought it out and as an adult, well, it just owned me.

Good thing I was a huge fighter for Good. For God. For what is right.

Huge Fighter ;)

I just wanted peace. I just wanted calm. Joy. Happiness. Quiet.

My Mom was a great mentor to me. All the women in my huge Italian family were ;) They all followed God and Jesus and went to church a lot. They had huge faith and had had very painful lives. They were huge hearted and big givers. Very loving and very cool. Smart, funny and independent but very dependent on God The Father ;)

That was very rad for me ;) Getting to copy them, learn from them,I just loved being around my GMom ;) She was the best! All Angeles really ;) I come from a long line of Angeles ;)

All the torture, all the pain and with out the devils lies and shame is freedom ;) Joy. No fear.

Low self worth, no God. No faith, no knowledge.

Fear, anger ;( no peace and no joy.

God wants your heart to sing and soar and for you to love and be loved.

The more you give the more you get ;)

So look close at what you give ;)