Been there, done that...twice. Once as a young girl and I thought I learned ;) Then Once as a mommy and a kick ass business woman ;) I love numbers, I love banking, I loved all the peeps I ever got to help, aid, serve. I really have had an amazing life ;) I grew up in Hollywood, and even though I think HW is the sex trade, endorses child labor and ruins lives ... I also know that God is bigger than evil.
Well, as a teen I got to put that to the test. I dated a guy with money and they introduced me to the mob ;) i loved it ;) I was so into family and tight italian who loes to host and comfort and eat ;) and cook and serve and enjoy life with. So i was taught by the best ;) I had the finesse in LA (Vegas, SF, PS, HI< London, you name it ;) I was taught banking by the best in real estate development and finance and I had a blast. Jetting around on private planes with private staff and big yachts, greed and corruption everywhere. It was thrilling, like a book. A movie, a story. I was hard core so I was cool with it until i got a little older. I wanted out. I was looking for a zen life just God and me ;) what I got was my ex and I was so tricked and deceived. He did help me get thru 10 yrs of pain and therapy and he was always there for me. I guess he just got needy when I had Evan and he started living a double life. I think he thought i was so cool and so laid back that I would be ok with him taking on a few other lovers and wives as I called them. I was to wife with kids but I was the mom. He wanted his attention and focus on him. Alkie ego. 15 yrs later he is worse, not better. I am better. I grew up. Still am but I know that my weird and wacked life has always been what i wanted. I wanted a soul mate i got him, just forgot to say sober and loves God ;)
Sober and not hateful. I always go for the most pained and angry guys ;( hmm?? my dad. They are all smart and sweet like my dad too (hence the trap part ;)
So now I like being a single mom and waiting for a guy that is not angry and mad at God (and me and my kids) OJ complex, but I guess he got away with murder so guys and judges just look the other way. They dont want to deal with the truth. In Alanon i heard, ur a s sick as ur secrets. Amen to that!
The truth exposes them and they want america dumb (and addicted and no self worth and no God, confused, drugged up and in denial. Shopping and avoiding the truth so u can die inside and they can grow. It is a sickness, a cancer on society. But all I saw my whole life was anger, greed, hate. Crime, judgement, deception, lies.
PPl are blind.
they are afraid of the government and they should be. Bullys. angry, greedy, mean, sick ppl trying to bully others. Taking out their sickness on kids,animals, the earth. The poor, the sick, the needy. It breeds more of what the bad guys want.
Wrong.
I like to see free thinkers, angry youth fighting for what is right. I would love to see more purity and less greed.
Teach your kids about God. Give them faith. Give them something bigger to hold on to, to worship.
To copy to teach to share. To have value in and fight your demons along the way. You need God. Anger and hurt is no way to live.
Confused and blinded are no way to live either.
Stand up for what is right and like a Mommie Whisper ;) I can see where woman lose it. Anger is very strong, emotions, fear, hate.
The other way is the way I go. Is the way I know produces better results and I know the truth.
Hmmm??? I know pain and anger can breed change ;) just stay on track and know what is real and what is not ;) that is a great challenge and tons o fun (for me ;) but I like being creative and thinking big ;) I know God pays off ;)
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