Blake Mycoskie's Blog

Blake Mycoskie's Blog

Allow The Holy Spirit 2 direct u and guide u ~ Who is going to lead ur life?

I would like to sit in an RV by the beach in a warm spot and write. Homeschool too ;) and go to church and my bible studies ;) so I guess I will try to hurry up and clean out my stuff in this house. It is just so hard to breathe in here with all the mold. It burns my ears and lungs and throat. It is sad too cuz i get these really bad head aches and my sinus' hurt. All from mold. Mold in my last apt. mold that was there before me. Mold that ruined all my stuff and makes me and my kids and animals sick ;( No justice unless u have tons of money to gamble on ;( that is so sad. so much mold and mold damage that the big huge insurance companies make it impossible to get any restoration or damage repair. It is so hard to move and function and I am so dizzy and light headed all the time. We are all fatigued and sore muscles and sick to our stomachs all the time (unless we are outside).

So moving again is my option. Moving to a house free of mold (water leaks and wood floors here and damaged drywall and ceilings and a slum lord land owner not willing to pay for any repairs. But glad I did not infect his place. My eyes burn and itch. But the lawyers say they can not prove mold damage as a threat to humans. Hmmmm??? now I am hearing from a few sources it can cause cancer. But since it is not proven yet???? I am not sure but I know it has really taken a huge toll on me and my family and all my belongings. I have a hard time driving and working with no energy and hard to move. I am praying to get out fast. Not sure where I am going and when but I am almost ready! I have to go threw a few more boxes and that takes forever ha ha ha ha well not fast enough for me!


But like everything else, I am learning to praise God in the waiting time. And think big!! Dream huge and do not limit God. I am glad my new church is doing the same thing and I find God leads me always right where He wants me to be ;) and really prayers answered always i see ;) I see that i have been praying all a long for things that come true ;) now I need to pay more focus to what it is that i want. For me. Just me. Not anyone else. Just me and God.

Now that is peace. Inner peace and that brings me comfort and then joy. Happiness in whatever happens. No matter what happens it is always better than where I came from. Not that I came from all bad. Just extreme greatness and extreme pain. Just like everyone really. Just how in tune u r to it all is the only difference.

I happen to have a love hate relationship with myself ;) as each of us i think ;) so we are all the same and all unique to God. All have our own gifts and talents to add and share.

Hate, fear, insecurities, fatigue, no God, no faith, no greater power than yourself to follow and believe in ???? leads to a break in my serenity and makes me stand up and say no.


Jeff Garcia "NO" (he makes me laff every time ;) I have seen him live so many times and I am always in the front row ;) ohhhhhh not easy for me! Especially with Jeff Garcia! Everytime I have been a part of the show and kills me every time ;) I laff but it is so uncomfortable for me (but fun too ;) to be daring ;) do stuff out of my comfort zone. I did it for my ex. He liked to sit front row. I rather sit last row ;) and enjoy from a far. But i like jeff, he is a good guy. a family man.

I like when he used Evan Quin (my son) as a point to his joke of how white ppl name their kids these funny names. It was so funny when he said what is your sons name? Ice House pasadena what a fun place. But in Irvine, Brea, oh so many times ;) always super fun show. That show I did have Bruce in my lap ~ that was really embarrassing for me. I could have killed my ex for getting up to go to the bath room in the middle of the show front row leaving me there oh thanks. I think he did it just to mess with me ha ha ha really?

I feel sheltered by my fears and spoiled by my past. I have lived in heaven on earth really. I have learned balance and joy and i have had the best of everything. I have the best of friends and family all really close to me and I live in a great warm place with beautiful beaches at my finger tips. I love fashion and clothes and I live near the best stores in all of the world.

I love music and skiing and I have the best of it all, right here. I love to travel and my parents showed me the world. I want to take my kids all over and explore with them ;) I love that I get to Homeschool and have had so much fun doing that over the last going on 8 yrs now ;)


I love my kids and hanging out with them and I really love being sober and taking my kids to church. I like to be healthy and fit and live a pure clean life. I love that Pastor Rick preaches on being creative ;) I need that. I prayed for that and God lead me to SVCC

All year I have gone to many churches in OC ;) all great but not the fit yet. I waiting and worked hard to find the fit and each time I got what i needed. the message was for me. each church saw me and i think got a shake up call too ;) so it was all glorious and God speaking to my heart ;) Now just what I prayed for ;) The best of the best. Although I am happy to shake up this church too ;) I dont get into politics at church. I just hear the pastor and sing and worship God and pray and write and listen and learn. There is always politics in ppl at church i try to avoid knowing names and just serve.

I just get down to God and The Word. And Worship ;)


Serve Him.

A Pastor is just a servant of God called to lead and I have always found Pastor Rick to be humble and teachable. That is a great quality in a Pastor. I try to avoid the "hierarchy" of other servants at any church. Attitude and ego tend to grow thick in every church I have attended. FCC was the least of them all but had the most to learn i think ;) I got major attitude at SVCC and still do from staff. But I think that Spiritual Warfare is huge. The battle hits home the hardest.

So I love to go and shake it up and wake up and open some eyes ;) Rick said that the other day too and everything I have been writing all year he is preaching on, so I am stoked to have that and be in such a beautiful place in my life. I live in beauty and I am surrounded by joy ;) Satan can only rob me of that if I let him.

It is a choice.

Happiness is a state of mind and peace and joy can not be taken from me ;) I will gladly give all that I have to serve and go where ever needed Lord. You just show me the way ~

I would rather live in a tent and be happy then live in a mansion in hell ;(

Been there, done that...twice. Once as a young girl and I thought I learned ;) Then Once as a mommy and a kick ass business woman ;) I love numbers, I love banking, I loved all the peeps I ever got to help, aid, serve. I really have had an amazing life ;) I grew up in Hollywood, and even though I think HW is the sex trade, endorses child labor and ruins lives ... I also know that God is bigger than evil.

Well, as a teen I got to put that to the test. I dated a guy with money and they introduced me to the mob ;) i loved it ;) I was so into family and tight italian who loes to host and comfort and eat ;) and cook and serve and enjoy life with. So i was taught by the best ;) I had the finesse in LA (Vegas, SF, PS, HI< London, you name it ;) I was taught banking by the best in real estate development and finance and I had a blast. Jetting around on private planes with private staff and big yachts, greed and corruption everywhere. It was thrilling, like a book. A movie, a story. I was hard core so I was cool with it until i got a little older. I wanted out. I was looking for a zen life just God and me ;) what I got was my ex and I was so tricked and deceived. He did help me get thru 10 yrs of pain and therapy and he was always there for me. I guess he just got needy when I had Evan and he started living a double life. I think he thought i was so cool and so laid back that I would be ok with him taking on a few other lovers and wives as I called them. I was to wife with kids but I was the mom. He wanted his attention and focus on him. Alkie ego. 15 yrs later he is worse, not better. I am better. I grew up. Still am but I know that my weird and wacked life has always been what i wanted. I wanted a soul mate i got him, just forgot to say sober and loves God ;)

Sober and not hateful. I always go for the most pained and angry guys ;( hmm?? my dad. They are all smart and sweet like my dad too (hence the trap part ;)

So now I like being a single mom and waiting for a guy that is not angry and mad at God (and me and my kids) OJ complex, but I guess he got away with murder so guys and judges just look the other way. They dont want to deal with the truth. In Alanon i heard, ur a s sick as ur secrets. Amen to that!

The truth exposes them and they want america dumb (and addicted and no self worth and no God, confused, drugged up and in denial. Shopping and avoiding the truth so u can die inside and they can grow. It is a sickness, a cancer on society. But all I saw my whole life was anger, greed, hate. Crime, judgement, deception, lies.

PPl are blind.

they are afraid of the government and they should be. Bullys. angry, greedy, mean, sick ppl trying to bully others. Taking out their sickness on kids,animals, the earth. The poor, the sick, the needy. It breeds more of what the bad guys want.

Wrong.

I like to see free thinkers, angry youth fighting for what is right. I would love to see more purity and less greed.

Teach your kids about God. Give them faith. Give them something bigger to hold on to, to worship.

To copy to teach to share. To have value in and fight your demons along the way. You need God. Anger and hurt is no way to live.

Confused and blinded are no way to live either.

Stand up for what is right and like a Mommie Whisper ;) I can see where woman lose it. Anger is very strong, emotions, fear, hate.

The other way is the way I go. Is the way I know produces better results and I know the truth.

Hmmm??? I know pain and anger can breed change ;) just stay on track and know what is real and what is not ;) that is a great challenge and tons o fun (for me ;) but I like being creative and thinking big ;) I know God pays off ;)

I am only sure about one thing ;) God, but I bet you knew I was gonna say that ;)

I am just in awe of God. HOw powerful. How real, how amazing and true! Weird, really. God does have a sense a humor and does like to play games with us ;) He made us in His image. God, I want a new Laptop. Thank you for helping me praise you in the waiting time. Sacrifice. I know is the sweetest thing to God and in return I am blessed ;) I learned that in Alanon and in church at bible study years later ;) Trust in God, not humans., God will never fail me, humans will always fail me. I am on my walk one on one with God. Always have ;) Just had 4 kids along the way ;) Thank God or I'd be dead ~ probably ;) I was on a real road to destruction pre kids. It was only after their dad left did I get help so I guess the kids did save me just God had to get the drunk out of my way.

Thank you Lord! So 13 yrs later he is still causing problems with his drunken rage and I get to see where my bad choices are now causing me so much pain. When I believed I was a bad person I believed bad things were for me. I had tried to run my whole life and it always took me down every time. I was starting to give up (so many times ;) and each and every time God swooped me up ;) Angeles I call it ;) God uses Angeles too ;) I had seen dark angles and demons my whole life. Anger and alcohol will do that to you and I was a victim of that deadly combo my whole childhood. As a teen I sought it out and as an adult, well, it just owned me.

Good thing I was a huge fighter for Good. For God. For what is right.

Huge Fighter ;)

I just wanted peace. I just wanted calm. Joy. Happiness. Quiet.

My Mom was a great mentor to me. All the women in my huge Italian family were ;) They all followed God and Jesus and went to church a lot. They had huge faith and had had very painful lives. They were huge hearted and big givers. Very loving and very cool. Smart, funny and independent but very dependent on God The Father ;)

That was very rad for me ;) Getting to copy them, learn from them,I just loved being around my GMom ;) She was the best! All Angeles really ;) I come from a long line of Angeles ;)

All the torture, all the pain and with out the devils lies and shame is freedom ;) Joy. No fear.

Low self worth, no God. No faith, no knowledge.

Fear, anger ;( no peace and no joy.

God wants your heart to sing and soar and for you to love and be loved.

The more you give the more you get ;)

So look close at what you give ;)

Hot! Fire! I love The Heat! Turn it up!

On fire for The Lord. Although it really is hot today and I am so thankful. ;) I prayed for heat and rain and got both ;) I love tropical SoCal ;) Not too humid, dry Santa Ana's, cool crisp nights ;) Great mountains and great deserts ;) Great beaches well, I love all beaches ;) Just warm ones are my fav ;)

When I go to The Oregon Coast it is really different in the summer even there as it is in So cal ;) Even Northern Ca is too cold for me ;) I like Hawaii. The West Indies ;) Warm beaches Tropical and hot. Humid I dont do so well with ;) Butr it is very dry from the Santa Ana winds today. Indian Summer it is called.

I got married 11/7 ~ so I could get married in the fall but in Indian Summer ;) My fav time in Ca. Aug - early Nov. Then it gets cold brrrr.... till santa anas come back for Christmas Vacation and more beach days ;) What gifts! Great snow and gr8 surf ;) Mammoth is Heaven but Tahoe is cool too ;) I try not to see big bear. Not needed. Sugar Loaf is not bad if it has snow ;) I gave up skiing to be a single mom ;) I cant wait to ski again soon ;) Prekids I did a lot of snow skiing. It relaxed me ;) And I dated a skier for 5 years ;) He was a maniac and taught me to ski all closed black diamond runs ha ha ha and ice ridden straight chutes that went straight down like the tower of terror ;)

Runs cut up with moguls the size of VW Bugs littered everywhere. I had no choice but to conquer my fears and doubts or go drink a lone and watch others do it (on tv ;) So I learned how to be a great skier. I just could never afford it on my own. I never had a ski partner after we broke up really. I thought that was a cool and hard sacrifice. It costs too much for me to do alone with my kids so i just waited. E & A snowboard with their dad - he never went to the snow with me - cept once, a family cabin trip. He did not know how to ski and I dont think he wanted me to teach him. I later married a snowboarder but he and I never went to the slopes either. We had kids. I never saw him get on a board in almost 10 yrs. I think he had enough after he won a few competitions drunk and sober. He went on to surf and kite and skate (more ;) Funny too how life works.

I always hung out with surfers, skaters, punks, musicians, artists. Poets, writers, actors.

I never knew too many behind the scenes ppl but i was always fascinated by film. Production and edit. Directing and music. So cool to live near HW and follow my fav artists ;)

I dont get too into money or fame and if I had Bill Gates money I would spend the world traveling to help others in need. I rather teach peace and joy not lies and deception. I see the world deceived.

I as well fall prey way too much but i see more each day. I know more, I am taught more. I seek more. Deeper and deeper into my faith I go ;)

So I love to have ppl around me create. Joy and goodness around me ;) I love to give and serve esp. my enemies. So I am glad I taught my ex to cook. and i am glad he cooks with my kids ~ just hate when he forgets where he comes from ;) Dont dis me to my kids ~ you should say nothing but praise about how much grace and and God have given to you. And stop trying to rebel. Grow up sometime or you loose out. My dad was not invited to my first wedding. He walked me down the aisle almost 10 years later. That took 20 years of work. What blessings and joy have come from such pain and very hard effort. Thank you God for always giving me grace. Thank you for teaching me compassion for myself and others.

It has been a very hard and painful life but really I wouldnt trade in one day ;)

I have had nothing but joy and blessings and I use the bad for good ~ and God makes magic happen!

Magical, mystical, majestic all mighty super natural God, The Holy Spirit The one pure good source of miracles ;)

I focus on God and good and doing my part. Being sober helps ;) My joy spreads and God heals my pain. I only wish for joy for others. Thru your fingerprints ~ and lot's of help from God

I pray for all the haters and prebelievers ;) All the sick and disturbed. To find peace and joy and to heal. To spread Good and God and make a choice.

You can not serve two masters at one time so make amends and choose good ~ choose God. I am learning to obey God and heal my life of all the damage that I have done. What a gift that is to give to my kids ;)

Faith. What is yours to pass on?

Doing the right thing is never the EZ way. Call on God to help. He does!

Powerful Stuff ;) these spirits ;) I try and pray to stick on the right side anddo the right thing, follow what my teacher says and stop ditching ;)