i breathe in mold spores and when it is cold it hurts so bad

yet nothing can be done unless you have money how sad. And even then you may loose. i know that is the ins companies bully and win. they donot want to pay out on mold so no one gets any compensation. Slum lords win. my last landlord was such a ghetto slumlord bully. I lived in newport but he managed in compton. well lakewood. and all gangster mafia jack ass. i hate crime. i so hate corruption. it makes me mad and that is good it stirs me up and i take action. i go to god. big g god but im eating a choc delish donout and im stoked ;) so yum! I never eat donuts but when i do it is a childhood comfort. my dad only let us eat healthy fresh home made foods. i was a teenager when i had mcdonalds maybe 10. but never til they got divorced ;0 then it was fast food nation all the way i was stoked i grew up on the stuff as a teen carls was rad and his son was a priest at my church but i was starting to learn of being a non denominational Christian, a follower of christ. a born again, transformed believer. oh, ok. sounded kinda new age. but no the southern baptis and pentecostal church whoop it up to the holy spirit so not just us catholics and who else believes in JC and why do they call them selves a methodist or a luthran? hmmm i started to question ;) I loved theology and prayed to be a scholar one day ;) i'm more like a preschooler ;) but my friends and mentors are not. and my background in church is not and my faith is not and my prayers both spoken and answered are not. I just need to have faith and not fear and im ok. I live happy joyous and free of demons and fear and evil. I use evil for good and that makes me happy ;)

Hallow means to worship The Holy Spirit ;)

I just love grave yards. I always have. I like to 'remember the dead'. I use to go week after week, every sunday with my granma ;) We would visit (as she said) her friend. I think the only man that showed her a man you love (other than her pa ;) can be gentle and kind and loving. Well, my moms dad was kind. but he got injured in the war (ww2) and got hit in the head and left. My mom was 8. I always thought that was a harsh gig. You know, you are born, dad comes home from the war a year later and one day he leaves and you never hear or see him again. It broke my heart. She use to talk so fondly of him. Even thou my dad was a major strict, mean and cruel person, he was also kind and loving and strong. Nothing seemed to scare my dad. He had no fears. He also drank a lot (and I think now it is just numbness). I later in life copied and did a great dead on impression of that same I could careless (except for kids and animals, plants ~ I just hated humans ~ grown up ones). My dad cared for us. His family. His folks, etc. Family was vital to both my parents. Sticking together no matter what. I really enjoyed that. I loved all my great aunts. My gmom had a lot of sisters. and they were all in my life (except for Minnie ~ she died prior to me ~ I dont remember how but I know my gmom would freak me out with her brother in law died shortly after). I would say how sad i am that i never got to meet ur sister minnie and how sad to have your sister die ;( All the sisters had kids, they were all married and I loved that. My granma had tons of great pics and i would sit with her and she would show me and tell me all about each person (sister) and their hubby and who the kids were in all the pics. So u can see I got really close to these ppl. They only had good stories to attach to and great feelings to cling to. I loved the old photos and black and white and the clothes and how no one smiled ever in old pics. like you were to look serious and distinguished. And all that black acid paper backings with the corner stickers in gold to attached and afix the pics ;)

I only have the pics ;) but I am glad that they are posted on the web so i can see my relatives pics as well ;) great memories.

My grandma married another person later and had a few more kids and I had a lot of aunts and uncles and many cousins (21 I think it is ;) that I saw very often. I loved that, we played and played on trampolines and swimming pools and in backyards ;) I was the oldest on my moms side here in socal but back east i have 3 cousins on my dads side and 2 are older than me ;) I liked that ;) Being the oldest (and not the oldest ;)

I am taking a break from my Nightmare (since it hurts my body to work so hard breathing in this mold and attacks every part of my body so it is very hard to move ;(

But I am happy to get the stuff out of my house (just soooo much stuff!!! Yuck) I praise God that I have a computer to type, to see stuff I like u know family pics, talk to pals, music!!!! God provides all my joys. I always have hot water and a bath tub ;) I have clean clothes (too many of them) happy to always get rid of the things I do not want to keep so I am stoked I have tons to bring to the shelter. Always ;)

Hey, I live in OC and I come from along line of shoppers ;) So I am not. But my friends give me tons and I collect clothes so I have a lot of great pieces that I love. I have always been into fashion ;) Well, dressing up, looking fun, using clothes to represent your style (& mood ;)

I have been like that since I was a teen. Well after Dittos that is so 14. That is when I started to pick my own clothes ;) That was cool. It was a great time. My mom had just took my advice to kick my dad out (ahh peace finally ~ I thought) But in that my mom found herself ;) Same age I am/was. That has been cool to relive that time and have be the same way (but improved on the errors that I saw)

She became beautiful (er ;) and shined even brighter. No more anger or hate or threats. No more violence or drunk rages I should say. I was way relieved (as I saw in her eyes as well ;) She had courage!

I was so proud of her ;) Helen Reddy was really popular and it was this whole womans rights movement. I hated all that self help crap. I hated that whole stigma of divorced catholic and i saw how wrong the romans enforced their man made rules to keep the public 'in line' to fear the government. It started with the jews, and goes thru the egyptians and says in the bible (OT) i will do this (after Issac and Moses story ;) That is where all the 'religions' split. separate. i never knew that until i started to study the holy bible. it is amazing to me how satan can turn god against everyone. so sneaky so good at what he does ;) so thank u god for making bad, so that i can know better. so i can do better. so i can make changes in my kids and any and all that will listen.

All Hallows Eve Or The Day Of The Dead?

Why? Why me? Why can't I have some totally uneventful life somewhere? Simple you know. I have asked that question my whole life. So in my quest for peace I have always wanted to walk the world and be free of any possessions, just all I need in a sack all qui chang and this mold is giving me that perfect chance ;) Free of all my worldly objects just me and God on our journey thru life ;) I feel less stressed that way ;) each day God leads me and guides me and directs. I call out to Him for that, and he responds. I work here and there and I take care of my kids I like to Homeschool so I do that and God provides the way. I need to learn to focus on the good to come and I am stoked to plan more at church which is what i prayed for too. I pray and God provides. I am very hard on myself and others bc I know we are capable and like a good trainer, u hv to kick some ass. Well, I am loving too ;) Doing it God's way makes me happy. Not having sex before I am married makes me happy. Not drinking and smoking makes me happy and my bible study makes me happy. All that I want I have. All that I need I have. And I love working a bit each day on what I want the next 10 years plus to look like. I want peace and happiness and I know that is a state of mind not where I live or what I drive, etc. That is what my heart yearns to do and where to be. All year it has been me and God. Just that. No guy, no bills, no job, kids in school all day and daycare after school. I worked many jobs and saw myself stronger than I ever have. I saw my fears and my needs and watched God conquer each one. I had many sorrows but happy to sob. But what has not changed in the last decade or two is the need for change.
Mass amounts of pain. Increase in cancer, war, violence and poverty. All this breeds self destruction and children are raised like animals.
This is in America. I am so happy we go to other nations and help africa in crisis but i donot understand why americans ignore the truth ;(
We glorify greed and corruption wins. We are a sick nation in need of care. We hide behind hollywood and what is the norm and i have to watch kids get botox & breast implants? How sad. For every boob job to please a guy I pray a girl becomes a Warrior for God. Sad to see that we as a nation think thin, under weight no muscles and plastic parts are to exemplify ;(
Being the weight your weight category says for your height obtained from healthy foods and daily work outs is the way God wants us to be. Strong, fit, healthy. One hour a day every day My Naturalpathic Doctor said to stay fit. Get your heart rate up and move, dance, thai chi, kick boxing, ballet, lift weights, take a hike up a mountain, play tennis, snow ski, etc. I do more but these are the tops I like to mix it up ;) I also had a great trainer (3 really ;) when I worked more and had the bills. That was grand. I really got into that but I like my gym and classes too but i work out at home and outside a lot too (I can focus better ;)
I eat fruit and veggies and i love high fiber whole wheat & brown rice. I love my flax protein fresh berry smoothies ;) God has put the best trainers in my life and Gilad was my first ;) Love his style ;) I eat a lot of fresh fruit and drink mostly water and tea i love coffee but rather not drink it so i cut way back. i eat junk and sweets here and there but as long as i work out it is my treats or rewards it is bc i work out that i get to enjoy in moderation so i never say i cant eat this or that. i chose to eat what i want and if i get sick from it i dont eat it (very much ;)
I think I will just walk away from my goods and not try to play house maybe i just need to travel and see the world. I know bc i get scared that i should do it ;) i know that is what i want to fully trust God and I am learning by doing. And facing my fears. God helps. I pray for clarity, wisdom, guidance and strength and above all to serve Him only.
So i think i try to be odd to get peoples attention but really i rather not so ...it is odd but I just call that ~ God ;)

Is it Odd or just God ;)

ok, this keyboard sucks, i am in no mood to edit and i think that appearance is important so does that make me fucked? No i rejoice in my problems so it makes me slow and care more - which is what i prayed for  ;) so not fucked.

I dont even know a 'clean' word to replace that with??  I am happy. and mad, sad but always joyous to be saved. grateful always at the same time i am feeling my emotions ;) being a previous numb person, i really appreciate that. Most dont. the cussing that is. or and the spelling, grammar, etc.      But i think i do that intentionally. my bad - sorry, i learn that way  ;) i hope others do too - i never want it to be about me. only for God so i am learning how not to let my  emotions get the best of me but to feel them is a good thing. no rage any more it has been many years but not drinking helps that. drinking makes me edgy and crave more like an addict.

I can only sleep in this mold house if i knock myself out with sleeping pills and that aint no way to live.

I need to walk away from everything i own ;( that sucks bad. Really i dont care cept my cook books and bible. i only have 4-5 but they are each so special to me. i think i will keep my cook books and seal them in a plastic air tight container so my great grandkids can have them some day if i ever have any grand kids ;)

my bible no way will i part with that unless God takes it away for me. I cant let that go. that has been my bible since i became a xtian. 1982 i got married ten years later. Too bad i just kept picking guys who treated me like my dad treated my mom. Drunk and Angry. Bad combo for anyone. I never knew til just a year ago or so that it is a sin to get drunk. God says in the bible, do not get drunk. Thanks God  ;) u always know how to take care of us ~ sad we only listen to the other side  ;(

Satan preys on our emotions. Stalking our thoughts. Like that cartoon with the angel and devil on each shoulder. But being the father of lies and deception we fall prey a lot. Too much! I denied being 'like my dad' an alcoholic from a preteen knowing i drank bc i was mad at him. Fine, u wont quit, then i will start. I hate u and u seem to hate me so i guess i will hate myself. Hmmm that's deep.

Most cant be that hard core that raw. most have to run. in fear and denial. but hey, ive been there too


still am, all the time, dah, i am an idiot most days most hours. heck most min's. But God is not. and i am learning to rely on Him more. I prayed to learn how to master being slow, intent, going to God for every decision and God answers prayer when it is for the betterment of others.  I know God wants me to learn better more and pass that on to my kids. hell, why did i have um if i cant upgrade the model  ;) and my mom use to say that (not like my way but u know her way ;) she would say that is why i had you. WHY?????  i would cry and she would say so u can make a difference in the world. so u can make the world better. wow, thanks mom ;) just got that ;)  But i write for me and i see what i need to see what God needs me to see. I dont write or do anything cept for God. Not for anything, heck I didnt stop drinking even when i knew my kids could and almost did die while i was passed out then why would i care bout what others think of how odd i am or how odd my story is  ;)


I just love to worship God so now i take my anger and i cry out like my life depends on it cuz it does.

I love hearing the bible put to song i love to dance to that and sing and pray. i just love being in a room with a bunch of believers worshiping it is my fav time of the week.

I only listen to xtian radio and i love my playlists with my worship tunes to my lord  ;) i love to write i love to talk to others and i love to listen to people. I like to debate and i love to eat but sleep has been my fav thing in life ha ha but true. Next would be hot bath  ;) Satan knows my weak spots and how to fuck with me sorry for the words that u may take offence to (i am not perfect but God is ;) I cant hide who i am i can try to change and waiting, praying and seeing how God uses it all good and bad and how i relate to some and others i despise and others relate to me and i make others run. It is all good to me. I dont see a problem with that until someone starts to be ugly and evil and mean  ;( sad to me i grew up being different. I was the one person at my school that worked for a living. It wasnt fun it wasnt cool it sucked. It sucked bad that people were mean to me because of it. Horrible really. I was shy and quiet and hated being in the spot light as u say. I hated humans. I thought at a very young age these ppl suck. I grew up around Hell's Angels in the 70's and it wasnt pretty. My dad was a drunk and mean and his dad was worse. I knew my dad didnt want to be an ass hole i just thought he was one for not doing anything about it.

So I married someone just like him (and after 13 years he is still causing me horrible pain ~ and his kids too, but he is really good at that, years of practice). Generational Sin.

Fuck that. That is all i have to say to that. Fuck evil. I know i have to say fuck and be mad like evil to say no thank u FO to jump to God's side. The light, the pure the good and Holy Spirit  ;)

The firs time i heard the words 'born again' i was young, 12 maybe 10. My neighbor went to MCA and i called them hippies, flower child baked their own bread and were all natural and loving and kind i thought they were on LSD

I was kinda mad that all those long borring hours in mass i sat still and listened or my dad would kill me but i drifted. mostly i liked it in latin bc in english i still had no idea.  I liked the veils and the old ladies were an inspiration, so old and hardly moving yet they came every week.  Dang they knelt up and down it would freak me out! like in their 80's!! and probably older. I thought it was cool that both my parents were into their faith and religion. After my dad got sober in the 90's he started to go back to church which me and my sister Jill think is really cool. My dad goes to The Mission San Juan to attend mass every sunday ;) That's my dad ;) How cool is that! I love that place! It is so beautiful and so filled with heart and soul and the spirit of God ;) I loved homeschooling and going on a few field trips there.  My dad lives in HB but he makes the drive every week  ;) I am so happy for him. That is how i know there is a God. My parents and their parents and their parents parents taught me.  I was glad my dad was into classical music and opera. My mom loved musicals and they both adored music all types of music. I grew up with a love and appreciation for tunes and i loved that. Muisc made my dad feel sad and think and talk to God. Same with my mom. Muisc made them happy too  ;)  I see that in myself over the last 20-30 years.

i just want to vent
is that a good title?
i think so.
so i am in no mood to edit or care of how my spelling, grammar etc look - i just want to type. which sucks for me cuz i never learned. i type fast so this new keyboard is killing me. i am so use to no pressure and this is like having to slam old typewriter keys pre electric typewriters. i tend to do things my own way. i rather. it seems to screw with ppl and i think thats why i do it - i am just becoming aware of this now more fully ;)

I have tons of stuff i write and when i am older and grayer i will edit it and have fun but for now i just like to mess with ppl and my mind. really for me and the others discomfort is just a side bene  ;)

i just want to save the world from themselves and i cant but God can so i do it his way and serve him. i tend to get caught up though in being a bit mislead by tv mostly - media in general and i guess we call that society.

if tv says to do it i say u should do the direct polar op. of that but ppl are lost sheep following the wrong master and that breaks my heart

i like that mostly but sometimes i get fed up and anger sets in and i get dark and mean and evil. i rather not. staying sober really helps. i am no good when i drink. i get myself sick and i just learned that it is a sin so i am trying to one by one learn better ways for myself in all the areas where i am use to sinning and hurting myself. i dont know why ppl get so upset when i say things?  i say everything to myself ~  i just talk to myself a lot - and i dig that.

i mean u know that i am taking care of myself. that i speak to myself - it is called communication ;) and humans have no idea how to communicate. Mostly fear takes over and that is satan.

sad but true

so i am a big fan of communication and i love to talk to ppl about God  ;)  I get to a lot and that makes me happy. I think and know that God uses all bad for good and i love to talk to ppl about that ;) I am learning now how to really embrace the bad in rejoicing cuz God uses it and has a plan  ;) I just need to show up and do my part. So i choose God daily and i pray every second and when i cry out in my desperate sad angry loud fuck!!!! I know God says FUCK!!!!! and gets me. I know he understands. I know he is on my side. He is too big to be put off by my pain. He shows me just dont drink today and soon u will not curse. and i know that is true. i know bc i want it and i work for it that one day i wont need to cry out in pain and sadness and hurt and remorse and anger.

The min i say no one is here for me God! no one wants to be there for me. I need you for everything. and he provides what i need in unlikely places and it bothers me but that is just me changing and that requires growing pains i am ok with that although i rather not feel sick to my stomach all the time ;(  but i am getting there and learning and i know that i will so im ok

God has a sense of humor and knows how to get to me. I love how he meets all my needs, answers all my prayers and laughs with me and at me im sure ha ha ;) he is my best friend, my partner, my doctor, therapist, teacher, provider, father, husband and today my mom. to hold me and hug me and rock me like a baby. i am glad she did cuz in my mind i feel that love and comfort and as a mom of 4 i did that rocking singing and holding thing bc i wanted my kids to have all that they needed. I sang christmas songs, lots and lots of christmas songs - i wanted peace for us. i wanted them to know God. I wanted God to transfer all i knew and felt in my heart about Him to them and i had no idea so i prayed that prayer a lot. I wanted what i got and better for them as most parents. the ones that have no idea bc they did not have that is where my heart longs to teach, serve, and change. I break every time i think of 3000 kids a day get kidnapped in america a day ;(

That is a lot of child abuse. Torn from your mother. And a mother torn from her child. This country has been not dealing with mental abuse and physical abuse and sexual abuse since we came here over 200 years ago.

I think those poor boys who killed the parents are in jail for life and really it was self defense. You cant have a kid abused as a kid grow up to raise a kid and not abuse them. Trust me it takes years of highly focused and concentrated effort and God. I prayed not to have kids so not to mess them up. I prayed only if God you want me to please. I did 10 years of therapy 3 times a week without fail (i ditched once and went to vegas but how could i pass that up - it was a once in a lifetime  to spur of the moment just go no bags packed just drive. It wasnt as good as my therapist so i never missed again. I was grateful and she never charged me. 10 years i went but she was catholic and wanted to help me. I was given this by God. He gave me all the best of what i needed my whole life  ;) Sometimes I feel like an Angel more than a Human bc i can not relate. But that is probably bc I was raised with Hell's Angels around me so I have a great comparison.  I rather cling to God and try to be like Him and I do much better than when I say I am choosing Satan when I do evil (or sin). I say  God knows I cant get it all at once and i need to learn to be slower with ppl and myself. I need to accept God's perfect Timing and that what is happening is for a purpose a plan. Go with it dont fight it and be happy. i know that god is in charge in control i know he is ok with little g and is not afraid of satan. he made satan so how can he be  ;) and he is god the all mighty and all powerful and i have seen miracles. Only God can do miracles so I know that for sure.  have seen satan and i have seen God. God is The Holy Spirit and God works thru ppl and God shows himself. Satan too, shows himself and works thru ppl ;( but god turns the bad to glory and that thrills me! I just love how amazing and present God is how strong and mighty and being up against death and torture, pain and despair my whole life I love getting to see and know more about my maker every day  ;) that excites me. that is what saves me today from death. Not my kids, not my stuff, not my boyfriends or husbands but God. My relationship with my God. My relationship with myself. and then my relationship with others. My story is my story and who i am is for God. I have seen some crazy, crazy stuff good and bad and i get shivers when i think of the good ( God takes away the pain of the bad and i get to grieve and the pain turns to compassion ;)

That makes it all worth it. That is why I do what I do  ;)

My Life Has Always Been Incredibly Odd

and i think i will start to record that for myself and further readers who may enjoy the oddities. I myself learn that way. I have learned a lot that way. The hard way as they say. I have battled demons my whole life and I have always seen the bad. Oh, I have seen Good too let me tell you! I have seen God in action more times than my broken down keyboard would allow me to type  ;)  but some day I will get a new one and I will write again  ;)  Today, I get to type for a short while in between taking care of kids, school, and errands, etc. work,  play, rest.... so I will start to write of the strange and bizarre things that have made me believe in Spirits.

And why I choose to Follow The Holy Spirit!

Sometimes I get so tired and so sick I hurt so bad. I cant move or think or breathe. I feel like a prisoner in a cage, a box, cold, dark and dank. But I heard the other day in one of the many churches I have visited in the last year that David lived in a cave for 7 years  ;)

I just love David. I love his story  ;)  I love his book in the bible and I love that he was God's most Beloved  ;)

ahhh   that brings me much joy and comfort  ;)  and relief  ;)  mainly cuz he was way more of a mess up than me and did way worse things than I have so I feel ok  ;)  so maybe I am like God's Second Beloved  ;)

Cuz I feel right just like David a lot of the time, but Job too and all the dumb ass apostles that even walking with JC denied him (many times said no i dont believe that) and they saw with their own eyes.

As well as the Old Testament Jews in the desert so those ancestors help me not feel so lame and dumb  ;)

But i do get bummed on myself a lot when I fall, when I am ame and get caught in satans lies and deceptions.
But I am glad it hurts me to hurt you God. I finally get it.

I finally see how when I hurt myself you feel like i feel when i see my son or daughters hurt.
And more importantly i see that hurting me is not what you want nor what i want.

....hmmmm now how do u break the ties that bind me.... well for me it has been a life long pursuit. Ever since I was a very small child I had to battle satan. Up to the death. Many, any times. I was just thankful my Parents were Christians and both raised as strong Catholics.  But I got to know both sides all too well for my young taste.  I grew fed up, weary, angry. I thought God was evil and mean & torturous.

I hated all that i saw and trusted no one. Except maybe my grandma. She was my bodyguard  ;)  She was tough and raised me not to let satan bully you not to fear the devil.

wow, thanks granny.

That was rad. I adored her she was my hero! JC was my hero God was my hero! And as I gre I learned more. ore bad as it was. I did become a born again Christian at 16  and i liked that. I got my first bible right when i knew God knew I was not going to take it much more. I had prayed to die for 6-10 years at that point ~ daily.

Huh! A bible i can study??? How cool was that! I loved God (and hated him too but I was pissed & had every right to be).

I was also a Scientist who loved to learn and experiment (love to blow things up in Chem  ;) And my mom is a huge fan of books and reading so i grew up with a huge library that my dad built my mom (which none of my friends had a library so i felt a bit odd) but i learned French in Private school when I was in Kindergarten and when I heard about Einstein, I felt OK.

Ahhhh  I am ok. Not that odd. He was and is a modern day hero of mine as well.

So I highlighted and went to bible studies and I now thank God for providing and I see how there are no mistakes in life.

Every little thing is in God's perfect plan. Stepping stones. Touch stones ;)  Stones in your shoe ouch! Dang! It is all for me finding trust in faith in God. In what i believe. In who I am!

You cant deny God. I dont care who u r I would debate any person alive (or dead ;) to that.

God as the creator of it all. The story is in the book. The history book. His Story.  Hmmm.. God is Odd and odd is different. You have to Seek and look 4 God  ;) But He is there. He is every where in all things He is the one who created Satan. Ahh now i get it even more. but from studing and reading the bible. I always believed. I saw both side fight against each other like Lighting Bolts. I felt in my mind, body, heart and soul both sides fight my whole life.

It is no mistake where I have been, what i have seen and it is no mistake for any one or anything else either.

It is mine to do my best to serve my Lord God each and every day to honor Him in my thoughts and actions.
To understand that that book has all my answers. My history. Your history.

To mock it is to not understand it. To be afraid to read the bible is the devil keeping you down. Kidnapping you.

Trust God and put God first and I am always ok

Do what my relatives  taught me and go to church and listen and learn and respect God. Respect His Son Jesus and Pray. I also use to be afraid of The Holy Ghost, until I became Born Again and declared myself a Non Denominational Christian who follows Christ and God's teaching in The Holy Bible  ;)  God transformed my heart and thru 20 years of not getting it  ;) I finally do hee hee yah, talk about your sloooooow learners.  No, justa good fighter. I learned but it was all the wrong ways. It took years to undo that brain washing and learn a new way.

Now, my fear (of satan or anything really) triggers me to relax. Relax in God.

I know now. I get to learn and know more as the hours click by, and that excites me.

I did grow up having to be tough. Strong. Fight for what was right and good and just. I still do. I just let God do my fighting for me. And that was after 20 years in the ring with evil ~ kicking my ass! But I know bloody, torn, haggard and beat ~ I will go down dying for God and what He stands for.

My prayer today is that all of God's creations love and support each other and rejoice in The Lord!

Come on! You know in ur heart that you want to  ;)  Just believe in miracles & read the bible & you will see ;)

That is why satan holds you back from reading it! Bc haters become believers  ;)

And believers are way stronger for God's side when they are educated.

And God is no dummy, dont u be dumb in thinking so  ;) This is GOD that u r talking about  ;)  There are some mighty freaky amazing stories in that book

and he made us in His Image  ;) So no wonder we are so freaky and weird  ;)

God IS Odd

and the bible is filled with odd stories and odd ppl doing odd things ;)

So be odd for God and know what u believe in and which side u r on.

There is only Good and Evil and you need to pick a side and follow the Right Master  ;) The Trurth ;) The Light The way  ;)

God is love and never fear. Satan is Fear.

When u get angry, think I am Willing Following Satan right now and Turning My Back On God, Do I want that?

No, of course not! Who would? Satan only leads to a path of death for you and your loved ones. So Say no to mean. Say no to anger. Say no to abuse to your body (or anyone elses ;) and be kind and loving and know that God made u and loves u F'd up and all  ;)  He made u that way 4 a reason!!!!

Go find ur way with God  ;) Go make peace with yourself and with God and with others  ;)

Respect God and Respect yourself and Respect others  ;)  Respect all God's creations.

oh, yah just work on that and we'd all be good  ;)

FOCUS ON GOD  ;)  That is what saved my life for 44.5 years

Thank you  Master, I am yours Lord No Matter What

and btw, God doesnt hate anyone he is sad when we get hurt by our sin and go with satan and get evil results.

He wants us to follow his ways and have good and joy and blessings and only love, no matter what. Never fear, worry, hate, or hurt yourself or anyone else  ;(

God has Guardian Angles and The Holy Spirit and God Is In You! Use it Now and Daily to stay pure and good and serve the right side  ;)

The more you know, the better you can do  ;)  My dad would yell at me God gave you a big brain, now use it  ;) hee hee I think that is when I started to what to study the brain of all animals  ;)